On this August day I dig deep and explore
my most inner thoughts.
Am I a happy person?
NO, not really. I know, because I am on the radio, you probably
think...what's he got to bitch about?
Let's just say, programming and hosting my radio shows are an
escape from reality for me.
You also think I live a glamorous life. Hobnobbing with cel-
ebrities. Going out to clubs. Living the high life. Not so.
I might have in the past, but these days I am one totally boring
person. Yes, I do my radio shows, which is the ultimate excitement
in my life. Other than that I take the wife out occasionally for dinner,
and we take day trips during the week also, while most are working
their 9-5 jobs.
Look, I am semi-retired. Worked many many years for the 'man', and
also self employed. Straddled both worlds.
My wife hates ( I know that's a strong word) that we have to live in
Phoenix, Arizona. There isn't a week in the past 3-years she doesn't
bring it up.
She has been sick on and off, mostly for the better part
of these 3-years.
So, you can understand why she feels the way she does. She
is very vocal about how she never got that sick in Los Angeles.
She wants us to move back so bad.
So do I, but then reality sets in. We can not afford to live there.
The housing is still way out of control. We would suffer when
it comes to anything financial.
I also would not have what I have here on the radio. Los Angeles
programmers have very little balls when it comes to something
different.
So, even though radio is not the complete reason why we are in the
desert, at this stage of my life, I would miss doing what I do on the
radio.
Again though, that is not what stops us from moving back to where
all of our friends are, and the best years of our lives. It is just
simply money!
Here we have virtually no real friends, and our family is so messed
up, that we are are retracting from most of them and their problems.
My wife takes in all their problems that creates stress. I believe that
is the chief reason why she is sick most of the time. She is 5'8" and
is down to 102 pounds.
Not good.
So lately we have at least achieved that. Stay away from them.
Unfortunately that leaves just the two of us almost 24-7. That comes
with some problems, but we are dealing with it.
Will someone offer me a radio gig that I am just able to be me,
like I am right now? It could be in the U.K. or any other country
for all I care.
The wife and I would move in a heartbeat!
